HEALING through CEREMONY, healing, ceremony, healing ceremony, shamanism, past history, past relationship, pain, past relationship pain be gone, Michele fire-river heart, medicine woman, Gabriola island, British Columbia, Canada

Why Actions Surrender to Reactions when You’re under Stress. Is this an app.?

Well most of you have heard of fight or flight,
it’s kind of like white noise at this point
if you’re anything like me.
In this post I’m looking at this human behaviour
from the perspective of
why when you’re under stress,
does your ability to take action
surrender to reaction?

Now I’m only talking about the places
where more healing needs to happen,
for in the places where you have healed, or never needed to,
your ability to take action will not be superseded by reaction.

A case in point in my life recently.
An unexpected crisis arose in my working life.
My problem-solving instinct kicked in,
and I dealt with things one after the other after the other.
Imagining after each problem solved, that this was the end of it.
I would breathe a sigh of relief go to bed and arise the next morning to ….
you guessed it, a new crisis.
(I’m sure this has never happened to you.)

This went on for weeks,
and because I was so reactive to the next crisis being problem solved,
I just kept going like a little energizer bunny.
(If you don’t get the reference, ask some old people.
Oh and by the by, it’s not like we’d had a cataclysmic disaster
and needed to put self care on hold
because self care at that point was trying to not die!)

Before I knew it, January was over and
I had worked 100 hours on this particular project
over and above other business.

Now knowing what I know about addiction and my own patterns of behaviour,
when I’m stressed out, I am usually blatantly aware of my moods,
of my timing, what I eat, how long I sleep, am I happy or sad.
This self-awareness is how I got to sobriety.
Well along with many, many healing ceremonies (Blatant plug.)
This crisis however had a client who was thousands of miles away,
was fighting cancer, and was just not able at that time here to deal with these crises.
(This is how I rationalized ignoring my self-care.
Again I’m sure you’ve never done that)

I had committed to a small project that went completely sideways,
and felt obligated to solve it as many people were involved,
and many people unhappy.
(It’s always important to make others happy
before yourself ….. NOT!)
I went back into addictive mode completely focused on only one need,
and that need was to get each new crisis solved.
I knew my eating habits have gone into the toilet,
I just didn’t have time to cook properly like I usually do.
I was grabbing things on-the-fly which for me is disastrous
as when I don’t feed myself with nourishing food that makes me feel satisfied
I get, well really, really, really cranky …..
I ignored it.
What I also know about myself
is that when I work over and above a certain amount of  hours in a day,
again it throws me completely out of whack.
I was so consumed with the problems I was juggling
that I was not sleeping well, which again is a very big red flag for me.
Yet I persevered until I started crying at some point every day,
and after three days of crying jags,
I had my very first panic attack.
In this moment the proverbial straw that broke the camels’ back happened
and my self preservation and self-care kicked in.
Within 24 hours I had new people hired and in place
to handle what I could no longer do.

That was five days ago
and now I am back into my regular routine
and feel sane again.

My actions had surrendered to re-action mode.
This was still my choice,
my lack of boundaries in this situation,
my attachment to problem-solving for someone I cared about,
at the cost of my own self-care.

The take away from all this was that I gained
a new level of self-awareness,
a new level of healing
a new level of being able to say no.
After the above story you may well think
‘A new level of being to say no?
You didn’t say no until you had a panic attack!’
but for me this was a new level of saying no.
In the past I would’ve carried on regardless,
through the tears through the panic attack.

We are all at choice in every moment,
however we all have an inner patterns and behaviours,
and they run just like computer apps.
Some of them are learned behaviours
some of them are adaptive behaviours
but once they are triggered they run.
So once you double-click that particular app.
until you quit that app.
it runs.

So the question is how to quit the apps. that you run permanently?

The only way that happens is through self-awareness.

How you get to your self-awareness has multiple pathways,
but unless you choose to look at who you are
and what apps. you run,
every single time an app. is double clicked
you will continue to run it, in the exact same way as you did before.

So what do you think?
Is it time for you to write any new apps?

Random acts of love on Gabriola Island ~ Today’s Daykeeper is Etz’nab

Random Acts of Love on Gabriola Island
~ Neighbours bringing dinner when you’re sick
~ Donations to rebuild a home that burnt down
~ Donations for a bike to get to work
~ Donations for many people in need at one time or another
~ Bringing Syrian refugee families to Gabriola and making sure their needs are met
~ Picking up strangers that need a lift to the village
~ Donations to the food bank
~ Care packages: Christmas and otherwise
~ Sharing the abundance of food at harvest time
~ Treats of food and drinks at a restaurant
~ Sidewalk chalk writing to mourn the loss of a community member
~ Hospice home visits
~ Food and caregiving before and after a death
~ Making sure your neighbour is okay during one of our many winter storms
~ Dropping in for a tea and a chat to isolated members of our community
~ Hugs, hugs and more hugs
~ Folks helping you move
~ Donations of items you need
~ Keeping our trails clear
~ Caring for injured or abandoned animals
~ Caring for our old growth trees
~ Volunteering, so much volunteering

The roots of love run deep and connect us all on Gabriola Island

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When I was growing up there was this lovely cartoon series created by New Zealand cartoonist Kim Casali. (Loveiscartoon.com) I remember waiting for the newspaper to see what the cartoon was that day. It is one of the few things that stuck in my memory about that time in my life. So I’m taking a leaf out of her book, sans cartoons to illuminate my thoughts about love in the upcoming blog posts. Some you may agree with some you may not, it is just my opinion, you have your own and that’s as it should be.

I encourage you to add your own in the comments sections & I will add them in.

Mayan Daykeeper Etz’nab ~ The essence of Etz’nab is letting go. Releasing what needs to go in order to birth something new. Sometimes this will be dramatic other times gentle, either way change is the order of the day.

When present, Etz’Nab may stimulate
a powerful awakening to anger and the need for change.
It can appear as rage or the destruction of an old form.
Through sudden events and changes,
Etz’nab may provoke you to be more present in the moment.

Etz’nab days provide an opportunity to detach from
obsolete motivations and future expectations.
You may want to voluntarily arrive in the present moment.
Recognize that when someone or something outside you
appears to interrupt you by demanding your attention,
you are being invited into the moment.

Those born with Etz’nab as their Daykeeper
are people who recognize and express the need for change.
Their actions often challenge the status quo and
can create change for themselves and others.

This is an exerpt from
Mayan Calendar Voice of the Galaxy by Raymond Mardyks and Stacia Alana-Leah

Should you wish to know your Birth Daykeeper, Contact me with your birth date.

Previous Etz’nab days this year Jan 1st, 21st, Feb 10th, March 2nd, 22nd, April 11th, May 1st, 21st, June 10th, 30th, July 20th, Aug 9th, 29th, Sept 18th, Oct 8th, 28th

Your interpretation and experience is your own. I can only share my personal understanding, I invite you to find your own truths and their relevance in your life. This is really important. If something resonates great, if not chuck it out. We gain nothing by ‘taking on’ others life experiences and beliefs. The juice and healing comes from within your own understanding, it is pivotal for your healing journey and manifesting what you want.

Kawak is present today (Mayan Daykeeper)

I love how the energies of these day keepers manifest. Today I am off to do a house blessing and cleansing for a friend who has sold her house and is moving. Transformation indeed. I love this work, the synchronicity.

Synchronicity definitions: the simultaneous occurrence of events that appear significantly related but have no discernible causal connection.

Definitions are in need of transformation, the more we learn about quantum mechanics & the nature of reality, the greater the inaccuracy. I wonder how inaccurate our current beliefs will have become say 100 years from now. Our ancestors will be saying ….. “Imagine they believed ……”

As this is Canada Day I send a prayer for our First Nations people for all the transgressions done & continue to be done under the name of Canada.

The essence of Kawak is immediate transformation. No heads up, sometimes a change that we don’t even notice happening, it just all of a sudden has happened.

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If you have been following my blog the information below is a repeat. Previous Kawak days this year Jan 22nd, Feb 11th, March 3rd, 23rd, April 12th, May 2nd, 22nd, June 11th

You may experience Kawak
as an immediate shift in consciousness,
a powerful force or a loud violent noise.
On a day with Kawak as Daykeeper,
you are invited to acknowledge and respect life’s mysteries and
all that is beyond your power and control

Those born on a Kawak day
feel a part of something that is beyond normal consciousness.
Their deepest motivations often remain a mystery even to themselves.

This is an exerpt from
Mayan Calendar Voice of the Galaxy by Raymond Mardyks and Stacia Alana-Leah

It’s a Kawak day (Mayan Daykeeper)

So today we are invited to acknowledge and respect life’s mysteries and all that is beyond our power and control.

I’m off to see Canada’s first green cemetery on Denman island in the Salish Sea. Death will be very present there & it’s made me think about why in our culture we fear death as much as we do. For most of us we do not choose the time & circumstance of our deaths, which leaves us in a situation where death is beyond our power and control.

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Light instant transformation, this amazing colour happened on Christmas day 2016

Although freedom and control in the traditional sense, is an illusion in western civilization, from my perspective, we do love to pretend that we are in control and free. In death we face an event that cannot be coloured by this illusion. I wonder if this is in part why we fear death as a culture to the extent we do.

So today I am off to embrace death, perhaps make it a wee bit more of an ally & chat with a few spirits. Perhaps this will lead to immediate transformation.

As tomorrow’s day keeper is ‘Ahaw’ all about completion, I will complete this story tomorrow with pictures from our excursion to Denman.

Should you be interested in learning more on green burials and end of life resources here’s Denman’s Cemetery website and a Gabriola Community DeathCare Collective’s resource site which is in process with new info being added little by little.

The essence of Kawak is immediate transformation. No heads up, sometimes a change that we don’t even notice happening, it just all of a sudden has happened.

If you have been following my blog the information below is a repeat. Previous Kawak days this year Jan 22nd, Feb 11th, March 3rd, 23rd, April 12th, May 2nd, 22nd

You may experience Kawak
as an immediate shift in consciousness,
a powerful force or a loud violent noise.
On a day with Kawak as Daykeeper,
you are invited to acknowledge and respect life’s mysteries and
all that is beyond your power and control

Those born on a Kawak day
feel a part of something that is beyond normal consciousness.
Their deepest motivations often remain a mystery even to themselves.

This is an exerpt from
Mayan Calendar Voice of the Galaxy by Raymond Mardyks and Stacia Alana-Leah